The Past?

So I just started randomly looking through pictures of Facebook, all of ME OF COURSE, and I was kind of blown away by how much I have changed over the past 4 years. Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually. SO MUCH! I can see it in the way I hold myself in pictures, in the interactions I have with others, in the events I have participated in. God has blessed me so much and I honestly cannot believe I am who I am now, in light of who I was. Honestly, I miss it. I miss a lot of it. I miss Homecoming Building. I miss random flights to Indiana to teach about building a school culture. I miss being with my best friends talking about Jesus all summer. I miss my family, A TON! I miss hanging out with younger kids. I miss hanging out with older adults. I miss Richie and Ms. Harden. I miss my Mane Linkers. I miss the people who God have used to shape me into this amazing person I am now that desires nothing more than to seek after Him. I miss caring, but not really caring about the world. I miss it a lot, mostly because I know I can never get it back. I wrote this for our yearbook and I guess now I am really starting to understand what it means:

"But now, as the day we have longed for draws so near, we understand that the eternity we equated with high school, was actually far too little time to spend in this incredible place. We begin to comprehend that what has occurred between these walls is nothing short of supernatural. We entered this place as timid, lost, immature children, but we leave as confident, proud, determined adults who cannot help but make an impact of everyone around them. It is now we wish we had listened to the advice of those who had gone before us, who knew what we now have come to understand: time is precious. The sea of weeks and months that once lay before us has evaporated into a puddle of mere days, and we find ourselves wishing we could reclaim the time that was wasted. But we cannot. 

Now we are moving on. Change is coming; it will not wait for us. We cannot postpone the inevitable. This must happen. We leave our friends, but never our memories. We leave these halls, but not what we have gained inside of them. We leave our school, though never spirit. But most of all, we leave our fingerprints, our legacy, all over this school, all over this community. And that is one thing we are proud to leave behind.

We are done here. We move forward. We can stay no longer; no matter how strong our desire. This season has passed, we must move on.

But do not be dismayed. We move towards a new life, new challenges, and new rewards; new people, new places, and new experiences. We will begin anew in the next season of our lives, and although we all go our separate ways, we can never forget the impact that we have had on one another. "


I cannot imagine what God is going to do in my life here at UGA, but I know that whatever it is, it will be for His glory. I do not want to be caught up in the past, but I can't look at the present of the future in a vacuum. I must look at it in light of my past. So I do not dwell, and I do not long with a painful longing, but I do miss it. Nevertheless, this whole life is about the One who gave His for me, so I will surrender all that I have, even if it means loosing everything I hold dear, for, in light of eternity, it is all vanity and worthless! So, as I wrote in Yahweh's Love, "I will give this life to Yahweh, though a feeble offering. For Him to do with as He pleases and to accomplish His will. I am secure in my surrender, for I know that Yahweh's love is faithful til the end!"


To You oh Lord God Almighty be the glory and the honor and the praise forevermore! AMEN!